Oh-Ho, Fro-Yo

Thank you lovelies for the comments on my past inebriated post. It means so much to hear "yes! you're doing it right!" though sometimes we don't think so ourselves...



Today was an ok day. I changed my calorie intake daily goal from 500 to 600 on my iPod app (mostly to compensate for the massive amounts of calories taken in per day, to make myself feel better). So on "Lose It" the weight loss app I keep raving about, there are graphs and figures and statistics day-to-day week-to-week, and being a visual girl this just really floats my boat! And you see, when I eat LESS than my goal, there is a GREEN space but if I go over it turns RED and becomes very obviously BADBAD.



My best friend left yesterday which was good for me calorie wise, since her house, and recreation with her always always involves food. My Mommy and I went to the Bay Area (in California) yesterday to hear a piano concert, and ended up nomming in Berkeley which is a fucking foodie HEAVEN. We split a burrito which I was hoping would be vegetarian=veggies but instead it was vegetarian=riceandguacamole, not a great calorie counting time...



Also, is anyone else like totally obsesssssed with fro-yo? It's such a craze in Northern California seriously, like there are 7 frozen yogurt stores in my tiny little college town. Ridic. It's my undoing, especially since the nonfat healthy flavors are often available to sample for free in these tiny lil' cups, with flava flavs like Peanut Butter, Sweet Coconut, Green Tea, and fucking Sugar-free Raspberry. SO DELISH. I need to get back on the South Beach diet modified to restrict all dairy.


fuck you, Pinkberry

I love you all, bonne nuit!

[all photos minus LiLo are of Maggie Cheung, fabulous Chinese actress]

Blogger Addict A-whaaa?!!

So the lovely Madamoiselles Sophie, Ava-Rose, and Emry nominated me for a Blogger Addict Award! SO SWEET! It feels nice to be read, and shared with friends.



Anyway here are my opinions, though they may mean nary a thing to thee...

(is this how you do it?)

~J'aime~
1) A day without eating slip-ups
2) Classical music (I have been playing piano my whole life, it's got a special place in my heart, I guess...I love Rachmaninoff, Beethoven, Bach--so structured!, and Debussy)
3) Painting, and FINISHING a painting!
4) Affirmation--I know it's bad, but in any realm of my life others' approval and admiration is prized by yours truly...pathetic?
5) Gardening--because it's wholesome and meditative, burns calories, and VEGGIES ARE FUCKING HEALTHY YO!
6) Thinspo that's aesthetically advanced, a la Zen Thinspo.
7) Nintendo 64--it's a blast from the past!

~Je deteste~
1) When self-doubt and criticism prevent productivity and happiness--the "You're no good!" voice.
2) Being away from my boyfriend...my best friend and love of my life (Read: why my summer has blown--DEFINITELY not literally)
3) Thunder thighs-- 'nuff said
4) The feeling of a stomach distended with food
5) Hyperreality
6) Neoliberalism, conservatism, fundamentalism, basically all those -isms.

Also. J'aime beaucoup/I love, a very very lot...
ALL OF YOU BEAUTIFUL SOULS!
You have been keeping me strong, and positive. Until recently I had no idea there were this many amazing creative people with similar problems to my own. It is seriously so enlightening and motivating to read your words day-to-day.

Merci!
xxxooo Eva

PS: Here they are, the nominations. *Unfolds envelope*
désespérée de maigrir--a pretty new blog to read!
Ms. Peridot, par excellence
Vicki
Zen
Charlie
Eibbroc/Corbbie


post-PS: CHECK OUT THIS MOTHAFUCKIN' WAD OF BLACK GUM I CHEWED
sry, I know it's gross. BUT THE COLOR! WTF!

Snackin' Smackin'

My mom is a huge late-night snacker. I think I picked up all of my bad habits/food addiction/depression from her. It's so frustrating. She wants to eat healthy so it's not too hard to fast around her, though sometimes she fusses. What are your parents like?

Last night at my friend's party I saw my first serious boyfriend for the first time in five years. That was...weird. He seemed almost exactly the same. I guess I am a little taller than I was as a sophomore in high school though. We're going out for dinner to catch up and such. SHIT, dinner! SHITSHITSHIT. I hate eating engagements. Seriously all I fixate upon is the food. At parties, too. So horrid. Anyway. Camping tomorrow. With Mumsie. There will be vegetables.
xxxooo Eva

AM Surprise

So I woke up this morning to my boyfriend calling me (he's in SoCal, and I'm in NorCal since June, but I'm going down for his birthday, and none too soon!!!). Hearing his voice started my day out great!

The second lovely surprise was my stomach...I had eaten way too much last night (and really just throughout the day) because it was my Mom's birthday, and I cooked like a bunch of veggies: artichokes, squash, cilantro pesto... I also a birthday cake of course--but made the cake with Fiber One pancake mix (added blackberries and some Splenda too!). It was, needless to say, a fibez-exxxxplosion. Haha.

So I had an awful time last night, crying and all because I felt incapable of changing my eating habits. My waist was like 29, almost 30 inches. This morning after the coffee and warm water ;) it was down to 27, almost 26 inches. Keepin it that way ALL DAY yo.

I read a great tip on Skinny Gossip about exercising in the morning, and I think I'm about to sign up for a 9 am aerobics class...so that means, NO TIME FOR BREAKFAST! Feeling good today. Let's hope it sticks.

xxxooo